There’s just a shit ton going on in my life. 5 million directions to go in and I don’t know which way to go. I’m trying to come out of my hiding hole and act like a normal adult but it’s kind of hard. I just don’t know what I’m doing. I feel like I’m floating down a stream when I should be picking a point to swim out onto shore. Yet I don’t. I just keep drifting and hoping there will be a giant sign that says GET THE FUCK OUT OF THE WATER RIGHT FUCKING HERE! Where everything in my life will align perfectly or almost perfectly. I feel like all my feelings about everything to do with my life are tentative and liable to change at any moment. Ugh. Being an adult SUCKS.